#Hope

I am afraid that if if forget 

That if I don't remember my story

If I don't make the effort, the brave effort to remember my story

Something is going to be lost 

Forever

Introspection

I don't remember love in my childhood

Yes, no childhood shit

But I really don't 

I kid you not

I am afraid but I am also brave

Because I am finding the way to remembering 

Because remembering is redemption 

Painful redemption

Like Kelly says. I thought my My life was empty but it is not

Which doesn't mean fulfilment is effortless 

And I am learning to accept and to thank the universe for that

Because of you my heart was never whole

But I am filling that whole

With my grace 

Yes I've never strain far from the sidewalk

But I am creating the habit to resist the temptation to stay small

Because I-am-NOT

Small

I sill haven't quite understood how to let someone in

But I trust that I will learn

In time